Just over 2 weeks ago, I finally said, “I want a divorce” (https://onlinedivorcer.com/online-divorce-kentucky) It feels like it’s been months. The sadness, the guilt, the awkwardness of rattling around the same house together. Trying to avoid each other.
I’ve offered to leave the house with him and find a new place. He wants me to make that happen ASAP but the reality is, we have to come to a formalized agreement for me to do that.
I hate every minute of this. I want it to be over, fast. I want to be able to walk into a room without my stomach contracting in anxiety. I want to be able to sleep in a real bed instead of a pull-out sofa. I want my kids to stop feeling the horrible tension every time they come home. I want them to feel comfortable again.